Currently Listening Shock'n Y'all By Toby Keith see related

- "Sweet"

Food for thought...

Well, It's been months and months since I updated.  I've realized that posting my life online probably isn't the smartest thing I've done. Since I started working in the schools, I've found that when you publish anything on line it becomes fair play for anyone...as many of my students have learned the hard way. I think I may start posting regularly again; but it will be on a less personal basis than before.

I have a question I would like to pose to everyone...

1. Do you feel stars (actors, actresses, musicians, etc.) should use their publicity to push their political beliefs on their adoring fans? What effect do you think it has on their careers, if any?

I'd really like to know what you think. 

This question stems from the recent announcement of Faith Hill and Tim McGraw denouncing the entire Republican Party.

Currently Playing Songs About Me By Trace Adkins see related

- Songs about Me

I love my boyfriend!  I'm back in Muncie and watching a crucial Pacers game; he's yelling at he TV; but I love him with my whole heart anyway! 

night everyone!

Well, I should be working on my unit lesson right now; but this computer at home is so ridiculously old it can't even save pictures online as jpegs! So, I am forced to do all my offline work first; which is hard since I can't really do much without the internet. 

However, I am at home right now; and I will be here until Thursday morning sometime.  Its funny, I spend so much time being upset about coming home, and then when its time to leave I am so sad about it.  I watched Father of the Bride today and it reminds me that that will be me someday.  Its sad to think of yourself never really belonging in your house again; but at the same time its exciting knowing you're moving into your own life.  I don't know, I think this fall will be good for me to be back at home again.  I think I can survive it.  It might even be a little fun, especially once teaching starts and I get involved at the school.  It will be good. 

Brian has had a tremendous influence on my outlook at things back here at home.  Knowing he has felt many of the same things I have has helped.  He's also helped me take a new outlook on my family, especially my dad.  No one has even been so nice to my dad as Brian.  Yes my dad can be a royal jerk, I guess he might not be sooooo bad after all.  He might just be bad.

Things with Brian and I are very good; I couldn't be happier with where things are right now.  This week is our first time away from each other; we were a little curious as to how we'd be on the phone but I think we've made it through with flying colors! :) 

That's it for now, folks!

Love you!

Currently Playing Dierks Bentley By Dierks Bentley see related

So I've definitely had better days.    I woke up this morning at 5:30am to write two papers I should have written a week ago; but as I always seem to find a way to put it off I was up before the birds today.  Back to why I'm mad...I walk out of my door this morning and what do I find?!?!    My floor has been torn to hell!!  Signs, pictures, quotes, everything has been ripped to shreds.  Everything was all over the floor; so I closed my door and went back into my room to write my paper.  I didn't want to deal with it that early in the morning, especially because I wanted to hurt whoever did this.  Two years of being an RA and four living in the halls and never have I seen anything as disrespectful as this.  Granted I've lived in the honors buildings all four years; but I thought we tended to hold ourselves to a higher standard than most students...or at least that's the reputation.  Well, it certainly wasnt' the case last night!!!!!  So, I came home today, cleaned everything up and stacked it outside my door; and that's where its staying until I can talk myself into picking that stuff up without wanting to scream. 

I had my last final today.  That went well; but then I got a paper back.  This is a paper I definitely could have spent more time on; but I had absolutely no motivation to write it because it held no interest for me at all.  However, I did think I had done a farily decent job on it; I guess not.  I got a 69% on it.  yep that's right, folks....A BIG FAT "D+"  I was so mad; but like everyone told me I need to just relax.  It's my last grade of the semester, I can't change it; and my over all grade will be a C anyway.  It will be my second C in my four years.  I just wish it wasn't in a major class.  Well, hopefully, she will like my final papers and I will be just fine; but it just wasn't the way I had planned to end my four years here.  My lsat day of class and this happens.  I don't take my grades lightly.  I used to rewrite papers because I only got an A- instead of an A+.  Things have not changed; but I have at least come to terms with the fact I am no longer a straight A student.  I just wish my last semester had been that way.  Oh well.  I need to stop stressing.  I will still get a job whether I have two Cs or I have all As.  I just can't be as proud of it as I would have otherwise. 

Oh well, I have checkouts the rest of the afternoon and my Lu-Wow tonight.  Then more checkouts and a hair dying party with Jill and Ruth.  Hopefully, my day will improve with some stress relief!!!

Love you all! I will miss you terribly. 

I had a really deep, really good conversation with Chris today.  I will truely miss him when he leaves this summer.  We talked about my relationship with Brian and my relationships with my parents.  I am really struggling right now with going home because I don't want to face the disaster that awaits me.  My mom and dad are just not normal parents.  In fact, they are pretty much the opposite of normal.  My mom has this tendency to hate change, moreso than me.  She is so against it that she does not even notice how miserable she makes life for those around her.  I have very seldom ever brought a friend home or a boyfriend.  She doesn't like her routine interrupted.  It's not that she doesn't like them; in fact, she may adore the person, but still not want them in her house.  She likes to visit and then leave, eliminating any disruption to her routine. 

I am going home in a few months and I don't know what to do because I happen to be in love; but Iam worried because inevitably, when I'm at home my mother somehow gets into the middle of a relationship and tears it to hell.  I don't know how she does it; but no matter how I fight it something snaps and wala! relationship over.  Living at home is like a prison.  I'm stuck with no way to escape.  I want so badly to transfer my student teaching down here as she has suggested; but I just can't see taking out more school loans.  On the other hand, for the sake of my relaitonship and my well being, a few extra thousand might not be so bad.  I don't know...I'm so stressed out about this stupid thing.  I just wish I could have normal parents.  If I were a parent, I would want my children to be at home.  I'd rather they be home than at someone else's place.  I don't know....  I suppose I should talk to Brian about this, especially since I've written it on here now; but its so hard to explain that it has nothing to do with him and everything to do with them and the fact he's the boyfriend of me.